As I mentioned in my series on self-awareness, the self-awareness that is possible in remission is a bit of a stretch, but I do think it’s possible. For as long as I have struggled with my mental illness, I have had an intense need to reconnect with myself when I was in a state that caused me to feel disconnected. I am excited to share that I have made some changes since my last post.
Since I have experienced the worst of my mental illness, I have been working to be in a space where I can not only feel myself, but also that I can be. My self-awareness has been my biggest obstacle to this. I needed to go through a period of self-discovery and to be able to feel myself without having to be aware of myself. I had to stop feeling so disconnected that I would think I was dead to the world.
To be more specific, I stopped being aware of my thoughts. The reason for this is because I have had some very long periods of being able to feel myself. Now I am able to feel myself, but I have to consciously let go of my thoughts so I can be. I need to go through a period of self-awareness, which I have done (though not with the same urgency as in my earlier posts).
This is the hardest for me. For a long time I was able to feel myself. But now my whole body is telling me that I am dead. It’s as though my mind has ceased to function. My mind is saying, “I’m dead because you are.” So I have to consciously let go of my thoughts and be. I feel as though I am being given a new body.
I think this is what the people in the video game industry are doing too. They are giving people an opportunity to be normal again. So they can go back to doing their normal job, and not have to worry about their thoughts interfering with their ability to do that job in the first place.
I hate saying this, but I think the video games industry is in the same situation. They’re also giving people an opportunity to be normal again. They’re giving people a new body, and letting them be. I don’t think that’s happening in the real world.
The video game industry are doing too. They are giving people an opportunity to be normal again. So they can go back to doing their normal job, and not have to worry about their thoughts interfering with their ability to do that job in the first place.I hate saying this, but I think the video games industry are in the same situation. Theyre also giving people an opportunity to be normal again. Theyre giving people a new body, and letting them be.
Well, that sounds like a really good idea. Let’s just hope that the video games industry doesn’t go the same way as video games.
Thats a good idea. Thats a really good idea. It would be a good idea if studios could just say “no.” I cant see how that would work. I mean, in the video games industry, there’s no “no,” but there’s a “if”. If you can say “no” to the studios, you have to say “no” to gamers.
In a perfect world, developers would say no to every single person who asks for money, because they don’t have enough money. This makes sense because as developers we are the most powerful people on Earth, and if we say no to anyone who asks us for money, we are taking power away from them, which is bad. But in reality, developers say yes to anyone who asks for money. That is bad.